Sunday, April 10, 2005
ok well basically since last time everything has gotten better, i have a new boyfriend who is ABSOUTLY AMAZING!!! we spend so much time together, i love him SO much, i dont even know how to explain how much i am in love with him!! plus he is sexy as hell and he is an AWESOME kisser so it makes it all worth it!!! You know when you are in a relationship wether it is a boyfriend/girlfriend thing or a friendship and you can only stand to be around that other person for a certain amount of time, well this is the exact opposite!!! it is amazing because we can spend 12 hours together like yesterday (from 9:30am to 9:30pm) and we both still want to hang out today! it is such an amazing feeling knowing that you are so in love that you can spend every waking moment with one another and not get bored or annoyed or anything! we just have fun! sadly i dont get to hang out with him today though, i have to stay home and help with chores and crap like that...UGH! but i spent 7 hours with him on friday and 12 with him yesterday so i think ill be ok! lol! plus i get to see him at school tomorrow anyway! im going to post a pic of him so you all can see how sexy he is!! lol! well thats all! later dayz!!
Posted at 10:47 pm by kakers
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Friday, December 10, 2004
I am so tired of everything, i am miserable most of the time. it sucks! i have a problem because i am miserable because i need a boyfriend, i know it sounds pathetic but it is true, i am really hung up on this guy, ive talked about him before. Patrick Osborne and ive liked him for like 4 months and it sucks because i dont think he likes me, well i know he dosnt want to date me, so even if he does like me he dosnt want to date me so im screwed. it isnt cool, and it makes me feel like im ugly. eventhough i guess im not, people tell me that i am really pretty but then why cant i get a boyfriend? thats what i dont understand, if im so pretty why cant i get a boyfriend?? the only guys i can get are freshman and ugly people, that sucks, it isnt fair! i just sent him a text message asking what he thinks about me, like looks and personality and all of that, so i doubt i will get a text message back but thats ok, he probably will get it and read it and be like um...ok...no. and never text me back, most of the time he dosnt text me back anyway. so thats cool...i guess. well thats all. later dayz!
Posted at 10:00 am by kakers
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Thursday, December 02, 2004
Well my break was pretty cool. i worked for the first like 4 days of break and then i had the rest of it off, so that was good! It sucked working every day because i worked 8 hour days and i was SO tired because it was really busy and i was running around the whole time. but then i had the rest of the break to rest...haha rest...ya thats it. so tuesday i went out with Pat and it was pretty fun. we went to the mall and walked around and then we looked in some stores and then we headed home and we went up to budwiser hill and we went bogging. it was fun but kinda scary at the same time. We got stuck in this one spot and we were backwards and at an angle it was scary. so he asked me if i wanted to get out and i was like...um yes! lol! so i got out and he fixed it, but it was scary. then he took me home. it was fun! well anyway thursday was thanksgiving and it was pretty cool my grandma came over and we did the dinner thing. Then on Friday i went shopping at the after thanksgiving sale and it was CRAZY!!! there were so many people there!! it was me and my mom and sister and my grandma. we got there at like 6AM and i was SO tired but it was fun cause i LOVE to shop! well thats all i will talk to you later!
Posted at 10:01 am by kakers
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Friday, November 19, 2004
ok well things with me and patrick are going perfectly!! I talked to him last night and we figured everything out! the only reason he hasnt asked me out yet is because he wants to go to the desert over thanksgiving week and he is going with all his friends and family and he might get drunk and who knows what can happen and so if something does happen he dosnt want it to be like he is cheating on me, which i thought was really sweet and so when we get back from thanksgiving break we are going to start dating and i cant wait!! i really like him and i cant wait until mon when we come back!! he is so cute and SO sweet and i have everything in common with him, we talked for 30 min about anything and everything and we talked and talked and it was so wonderful! we has the same thoughts and everything! after that convo i think this really could work out and that would be so wonderful if it does! it kinda sucks though because today he is leaving at 10:30 and i wont be able to see him again until that monday, it sucks! i am going to write him a note and put it on his truck, or maybe meet him out there, and say good bye or something, i dont know. i dont know how i should act, because technically im not dating him and i dont know how i should act, like what is Appropriate and what isnt, but i dont know! im gonna go and meet him!! later dayz!!
Posted at 10:22 am by kakers
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Tuesday, November 16, 2004
ok so since we passed our AMI, we got to go to magic mountain and it...OMG it turned out to be exactly how i wanted it to be!! Patrick was my buddy which was perfect and we hung out together ALL day long!! he followed me everywhere! it was so cool! OMG! and we went on rides together and we flirted and it was so cool! the day was exactly how i wanted it to be! it started out lame, cause he didnt talk like all the way down there, but i think it was just because he was nervous and tired, so i talked to steven and all the rest of the people on the back of the bus. but on the way home...wow...it was SO cool. there was a problem on the way home because a girl got an "asthma attack" which i dont believe, but whatever, but once we left the hospital in east LA, i put my head on his shoulder and it didnt do anything at first cause he was listening to his music but then he stopped his music, and took off his head phones and laid his head on mine, and i thought i was going to die, cause i have liked him for at least 1 1/2 months now and something is finally going to happen...i hope! so we just got really comfortable together and we fell asleep. it was the most romantic thing that has like ever happened to me! eventhough it was on the back of a school bus...lol! it was still amazing! i havnt seen him since then though and that was on thursday and today is tuesday! that was 5 days ago! thats forever ago! i got to talk to him on Friday and on monday night but only for a few minutes at a time. i really hope i get to see him soon. and i really hope he thinks we should date, because i told him its up to him, because he knows how i feel about him, so i told him to think about it and let me know! so i dont know when i will find out but hopefully it is soon! well thats all! later dayz!!
Posted at 10:29 am by kakers
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Friday, November 05, 2004
OMG!! AMI went SO good! we got an overall grade of outstanding! i am so pumped!! supply got a grade of outstanding too!! which is even better because i worked SO hard on everything, since this summer i have been working my ass off to make supply look good and it does!! Everyone did such a good job! i got to use a saber too! it was so exciting...ive never used one before in a performance and i got to, i felt so special!! Even Russo didnt mess up! we did such a good job! there were like 50 people who got an outstanding on their personal inspection and that is very impressive. so we are in the running for Distinguished unit! which is very exciting because that hasnt happened since 1996 the first year ramona had an NJROTC unit, that was 8 years ago. LONG LONG LONG time!! So it is VERY exciting! There is supposed to be this thing tonight at the football game where me and 2 other seniors are going to be recognized because we are on color guard and i dont know it is very weird. so i dont know if i will go or not, i think i will ask CDR about it and see what he says, if he even knows anything about it. cause he wants parents to go too but i dont want to bother my parents if it is not worth it or if CDR knows nothing about it. its pointless, then why bother. the other two guys dont want to go, so i will ask CDR and if he says i should go then i will but i want to make sure first. well thats all! im watching a movie, Van Hellsing so i will ttyl! later dayz!
Posted at 09:59 am by kakers
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Monday, November 01, 2004
ok well my hallowen sucked! my whole weekend was kind of lame. Friday all i did was work in supply...which was lame, but at least i got everything done for AMI, so i feel a lot better about that. but then i came home and laid around for the rest of the night...lame! ok so saturday i had to work and i was like 2 min late and i have never been late and it was very upsetting, so they will probably hold my check!! FUCKERS!!! i hate them all!! LAME! i really want to quit but i cant really do anything else, and i dont want to drive down the hill and i dont know, i probably wont quit but it still sucks! LAME!! well thats all later dayz!
Posted at 10:01 am by kakers
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Friday, October 22, 2004
Hey all! well im in 3rd period right now and im watching the sixth sence...i havnt seen it in a long time, it is a really good movie! I like my third period because of that guy that is in my class. i also like my 4th period class because there is a guy in that class too...he looks at me all the time and he is really cute! ive known him since i was in 3rd grade and this is the first time since jr. high that i have had a class with him. he is really cute...and he looks at me a lot, so i dont know what that means but it cant be a bad thing...right? lol! but i think i still have a thing for a guy who i met online and we talk all the time...its weird because ive never met him. ive talked about him on here before...chris. he is really hott, from his pics anyway. i know his sister, we are really good friends.
Something really bad happened today, i found out that i kid i knew killed himself last night, he cut his wrists. it is really sad because this is the 2nd person who has killed themselves within like the past 2 months. I just wish i understood the mentality of people who kill themselves, i would just like to know how they could possibly think that things are so bad and they are never going to get better...things always get better, not always right away and not always exactly wonderful. but they do get better than they are right now. it is just really weird. i have a friend who is having a really hard time with it and i feel really bad but there is nothing i can do about it.
The social is tonight!! i am really excited about it! i got my costume all fixed up and i did everything i needed to do for it and it looks so cool! i really hope the social is really fun!! i really want it to be!! hopefully it will be! well thats all really...i will go now... later dayz!!
Posted at 10:19 am by kakers
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Thursday, October 21, 2004
ok well im over partick, he is so lame, and kind of a dork. its cute and he is really funny but i think i would like to be friends much more than i would like to be anything else. Plus there is this guy at my work that is really hott and we have been flirting since he got hired which was like a week ago. he used to go to my school but he goes to monticido now, which is almost better because if he did go to my school then he would be popular and he would ignore me, because im not popular so thats how those things work. but he dosnt so there is a possibility...lol! but im not going to rush this because i like him and i dont want to screw it up! i really want this to work. i dont think it will but it is possible. there is also this guy in my 3rd period...he is a forgien exchange student from pakastan and he is really cute and he has an adorable accent...lol! he has REALLY nice hair!! i have a thing for guys with good hair...lol! also i am going to be Betty Boop for halloween and it is going to be really cute!! i dyed my hair last night and it looks ok, and then i have to try and find shoes today...it is a lot harder than i thought to find red shoes!! well thats all. i just wanted to talk! lol!
Posted at 10:31 am by kakers
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Wednesday, October 20, 2004
So i talked to patrick last period and he said that he thinks he is falling for his ex and she is so wonderful and i think thats really great that he feel for someone like that and i just hope things work out for him. i just told him that i wish i had heard it from him first. like i am a really easy person to talk to and im not going to be mad or anything, plus he likes me just not as much as he likes her, which is fine he knows her a lot better and i really want to become friends with him and like hang out and just become really good friends, where i can talk to him about anything and not feel werid about it. that would be really cool! we just need to go hiking and have fun together! that would be really cool! so we hung out in supply all period and talked and it was really cool.i think we made a small connection, like as friends, it was cool! i felt really bad for him though, cause he fells really bad, and he is really upset because of his ex. she moved and he wants to ask her out, but he didnt and he cant. and he is really sad. so i felt bad for him, he gets really upset and down on himself and down just in general. so i gave him a hug, cause it looked like he needed it. everyone needs one sometimes, and today was his day. i wish i could give him another hug, he just needs one like every 20 min. but i only see him in 2nd per, so i cant do that. but thats ok! i really hope that i can be friends with him. well thats all i will update when anything new happens!!
Posted at 10:22 am by kakers
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This is my boyfriend ryan, isnt he hott? i think so anyway! well we have been dating for a little over 3 months and things are great!! I LOVE YOU RYAN!!!
Me and Ryan at Prom!!! I love this pic too!!
